My somewhat basic personality

My personality stems most from my zodiac, wich is the crab, or cancer. What means i feel responsible for lots of things, i could be your parent, im loyal to a fault, break a promise to me and i will haunt you with it for the rest of your life, and so on...
But let's not forget that i'm probaply the most empathic person you will ever meet. i will feel your pain aswell as happyness inmensely, I'm always looking for answers and i am a very sophisticated and phlilosophic person, i dare to question the universe, and sometimes answer them...
I struggle with light autism in the form of PDD-NOS, or more accurately: low processing disorder, especialy when something bad happened, i need time to process it. It made me slow, slower than most humans, i would be an annoyance towards ADHD'ers, depending on the level of patience they have, wich sometimes is, in hindsight, a little bit funny...
I am also very Diciplined: by having 2 family sides both having a millitairy background, i had respect for millitairy since i was little, they are real heroes in my eyes, but since short i am only Diciplined when i have to be, because of recent events...
All in all i've mastered time and how to use it, without getting overworked pretty well, people go too fast these days. Slow down and think, don't be a taurus all the time and enjoy what you have, if you have the time to do so...
I have a high sense of judgement: i understand what is right, and what is wrong. And sometimes this can lead to risk's, i take judgement into my own hand. But these moments happen very rarely, i'ts like you can do something, but you can't at the same time, at the same time, my brain often wants to punish me for things i did not even do, getting me into trouble...also i am (almost) completely PG-friendly: what means that i'm not cursing or doing anything weird in front of children, i will even go so far to protect one if you swear around them, that's one of the easiest ways to make me angry btw...
I do not fear death, at all. If i die in my sleep this night, i'll have the priviledge to say that i made the best of it in my possibillity right now, that i live with no regrets (ehh...maybe a few then...) but certainly no regrets of how i am, and that i was able to turn my many trauma's into experience...
i do hate things, like...really REALLY DUMB QUESTIONS, (ex: looking at me for 2 minutes to look what im doing and then ask: What are you doing? REALLY HAPPENED TO ME BTW) or pretending you know more than i do just because it is so, i do not claim to be better than you, you just have to learn some things the hard way you know, or that you hide who you truly are, the fun part about that is that you can't hide from me, even if you tried your hardest, also i hate people who judge too quickly, and stay with that judgement untill the end of days, that's just childish, thanks to my low-processing, i judge mostly the right way...
I meditate for over 15 years, initialy to control my anger, but came forth into other abillities, like i have now an enhanced feeling and a sixth sense, i'm able to grow my aura and shrink it at the same second, i'm actually able to detect ghost's and even had encounters with dead people, i can give and take energy, make someone's head burst out of pain, heal to an extend, im developing reiki: some sort of in-depth chackra manipulation, and this all based on my own feeling, i also dabble in a little bit of witchcraft knowledge, and exorcism knowledge, only to provoke the situation spiritualy if needed
Religion: i am a Spiritualist/Athiest, i have been slapped with the christian bible, but i remain unreligious for so long because i hate being a part of groups and look a certain way to others, but i do believe in things, like that there's not always an sientific explaination for the most bizarre things, i do believe in the good and the bad, i meditate, and lean a bit in the buddhist believe of thingspolitics: i am completely A-political, do not even talk to me about that, its one big puppet house at this point, and i do not only talk about my country...
I can adapt to every situation, within seconds: i can get to goofy to very serious in a snap depending on the situation, this isn't without any risk: people might get confused by it so see it as some sort of warning
I have inmense body control, and i do a fightsport to enhance my mind and spirit, a mixture of bo staff, tai-chi, aikido, star wars and feline movements and i am able to teach, yes...teaching you how to fight, what could go wrong?
before you comment on my voice: let me explain: i have a deep voice, in early 2021 i got struck with a massive head virus (no corona, what was odd to me, but normal fever do exist too) but this virus cause me fever for almost 41C (108F) and i laid completely beaten for 3 weeks on my sofa, and all that remain was this heavy voice...i mean i sound like a wise old man
I play varied different games, though i do like a good story above anything. I enjoy adventure/exploration and some games where i do need moderated brain stimulation and strategy aswell, racing and first person shooter are not my thing. Under the sole exeption of a few like Halo, or racing games where you can oblitterate your opponents like burnout: takedown...
My taste in music:
my favourite band what i grew up with will always be: The black Eyed Peas, even to this day
The Chemical brothers, for their taste in house music in the 2000's
Gorrillaz: because of the LORE
Daft Punk: for their introduction of techno around 1980
Metallica rock, early AC/DC for the beautifull Bonn Scott and his contagious smile
the awesome guitar solo of the Rotterdam's EDDIE VAN HALEN, as a plus he's netherland's just like me
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Monte Booker for his zero fatigue innovation
Ravyn Lenae for the softest soul voice you will ever hear
Smino for the rap
(these 3 combined is just pure gold)and many many more
another stress-reliever of mine are jokes, i use puns (sometimes way too much) and other stuff and can handle a good joke that way or see the irony in some events...i even speak fluent sarcasm...
MY PC SPECS:
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Case: Phanteks Enthoo 719 Grey
Motherboard:
ASUS ROG STRIX 570 E-gaming (BROKEN)
(replaced) ASUS ROG CROSSHAIR VIII hero (WiFI)
Power Supply: ASUS ROG THOR 1200W
CPU:
AMD Ryzen 9 3900X (BROKEN)
(replaced) AMD Ryzen 9 5950X
RAM: G.skill trident neo 64GB 3600 M/ts
Cooler (water):
NZXT kraken z73 (BROKEN)
(replaced) NZXT Kraken Elite 360 black
Graphic Card: MSI Geforce RTX 3080 TI
3 SSD's: 250gb, 2TB and 4TB (4TB, BROKEN) (replaced with one 2TB)
1 HDD: 4TB
7 NZXT fans with RGB rings, RGB fully customizable! (3 BROKEN, replacing it with the same fans)
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Music that describes me a lot (will add more)
Focusmon:
Focusmon is my spiritual pact animal (very similiar to Dungeons and Dragons warlock, except i do not do his bidding, he obeys me and respects my control) and has been with me since i was around 5 years old, a black/beige wolf with poison-green eyes and has taught me many things, and without further context, saved my life once, if it wasn't for him, i'd be living a isolated life, or even been dead a long time ago, he helped me when no one else could...i owe him my LIFE...
